Starting Fresh and New

I decide to start fresh and new. For how long? I'm certain it is for a long time. I need to fix and patch my problem before I start. My new book may not as clean as others, it is better than a dirty one, right? 

I believe that I can do it!!

The lowest time in my life

Sad but true. i'm consider right now, at this moment when i writing this post i'm at my lowest time in my life. Uncertain about the future. Did't trust anybody or maybe just an ego problem lead to i don't tell people about my problems. The truth is scary, so i ran from it. right now, i just want to shut off myself from my friends because of his uncertainty feeling inside myself. Comparing myself from the past and this moment, i feel empty. Losing the passion that i have when young. it's my fault. since I live on the past not the present. hoping that all is beautiful as a rainbow. Now i know rainbow still fade away. The statement all is well is not true. All IS WELL because you put effort. I hope by the time i read this post, i will not in my lowest time.